After months of constant goodbyes I became used to it and was eventually happy of all their decisions to serve the Lord. After a bit of humbling I decided I too should pray again to see if I am on the right path. Months went by I was not getting an answer. (or so I thought). Finally in June I went to my Bishop and told him of my dilemma. He told me to just open my papers and read through them. He said I will get an answer through that. And he was right. As soon as I logged on for the first time I knew that I was supposed to serve a mission. After that everything fell in to place.
For some reason though I could still not buck up the courage to tell everyone that I was going to serve. If people asked I just brushed them off and said "oh maybe" or " I'm thinking about it" even though in my head it was already a yes. I did this for months. Finally I decided that I couldn't do that anymore. I started my telling my best friend. He was so excited and I wondered why I was hiding it away in the first place. Was I ashamed that I decided to serve the Lord? No but in my head I thought everyone would judge me. From then on I proudly told everyone that asked that I was going on a mission.
Now getting the answer to go was not the only step. I had to tell myself why I wanted to serve. It wasn't only because the Lord wanted me to go. It was because I wanted to go. I didn't want to force myself on a mission because it felt right. I have to know for myself that this is something I want and need to do. If I didn't, I don't think I would last long in the field.
These are the reasons I came up with.
1) I can (and want to) do hard things! I love nothing more than coming home at the end of a productive day and reflecting on all I've done. It gives me great satisfaction when I cross things off my daily to do lists. A mission allows me the chance to work my tail off all day, everyday for 548 days. And the best part is, none of that is for me. I get to dedicate all I do in the name of my Lord Jesus Christ. I get the chance to stop worrying about myself and serve others. I can't wait to work hard all day and not be graded on what I do. School is wonderful and all but at the end of the day no matter how hard you work you are given a grade and sometimes it doesn't always reflect all you do. The Lord does not give us grades. If we give our all that is sufficient for Him.
2) I love this Gospel. Everyday I get up and center my life around the doctrine and teachings of this gospel. I try everyday to live up to the covenants I have made to be a righteous example as I follow the example of Christ. This church makes up every part of who I am and what I do. I want to share what I know and love to everyone. I want people to feel the peace and happiness I feel. I want people to know that they have someone there to lift them up on a hard day. Someone who will take on their sins and burdens. I would be so selfish to keep all that I know to myself. Everyone deserves to hear about this gospel.
3) It's only 18 months. Seriously that is a blink of an eye. I owe at least that to my Savior. He needs us to act as His agents here on Earth.
4) It's the chance of a lifetime. When else am I going to get the chance to be a young single adult and go out into the world and live among a people I don't know. Experience a place I've never been. Not only that but we get to share a message with them that will change lives. In these 18 months I will have the power to change people's lives! I will bring people closer to their Savior. I will grow so much as well.
I am so grateful for the opportunity I have to go to Houston Texas. I know that I have been called by God to serve those people. I cannot wait to get out there.